I'm a wishful thinker with the best intentions

I've been lucky enough to have some really solid conversations with my best friend and it couldn't have come at a better time because I've been in limbo lately. I've been getting inside my own head a lot and really starting to fuck with my own thoughts and it's causing the root of my problems.

For one thing I need to start taking everything as it comes and not leading myself down a path of false thoughts. I'm giving myself anxiety by over analyzing, anticipating and expecting certain outcomes and it's gotten the best of me. I've also been playing games with myself trying to change the outcomes of situations and forcing others to occur. I'm not sure if any of this will make sense to anyone else...but it doesn't really have to.

If I stop trying to force certain outcomes to arise then I can't expect them to go a certain way...therefore I can't get disappointed. If I stop getting mad and having anxiety over situations that I assume happen, that aren't even necessarily true, I think i'll be a lot better off.

I'm done psyching myself out.
I'm done having bad intentions.
and I'm just going to put forth positive energy and base my choices solely on having positive intentions, not because I'm trying to sway a situation or influence specific results. I set myself up for failure when I do that.

Honesty & Positivity. That's how I roll.

And so it begins.. again

...I can't let my hopes get the best of me.
I can't have any expectations.