Where's the decency?

I'm unsure as to why it's so hard for us as human beings to be decent people. The lack of respect we show towards others is pretty gross. I've done and said some rude, nasty things to people but I'm trying really hard to act my age and be a step above that. It's not worth it anymore! The energy that people put forth into being assholes is a waste. If you don't like someone-don't talk to them. Don't hang around them. Problem solved.

I don't believe in God and I'm not sure what my "purpose" is here, but as far as I'm concerned we all just need to be good, everyday. Tolerant, respectful, kind, and patient. If we can accomplish that then I'd say we're on our way to becoming solid people. I'm just choosing not to partake in fighting, name calling and negativity. Of course there will be the very few exceptions where someone deserves to get rocked but that's rare. We need to think about our actions toward one another and practice the simplistic task called, COMMON COURTESY !

Make it happen.

My internet has been down and so have my spirits.

I'm such a positive pessimist. Lately everything has been super stressful between work, apt life and school. Nothing seems to be fitting together like it used to and that's pushing way heavy on my chest. Regardless of how lost I feel at the current moment..and in the past few weeks i'm going to shut up and take two seconds to appreciate something positive.

Over the past month..give or take... i've met some really awesome new people. I like to think i'm outgoing and social but when it comes to meeting new people and actually keeping in touch with them enough to call them friends is where I fall pretty flat. Reason behind this? I feel like i'm not worth these people's time. Everyone has their own circle of friends and why do they need me if I don't even live in the same city or state. DUDEEE such a bad outlook. What's wrong with me?

Well that's fucking stupid of me and I'm done. I met these three dudes from Albany a few weeks ago and they're rad. Two of them are stylists which is so nice to have someone to talk to about hair that isn't at my academy. We had such a good time when they came to Providence and it was really refreshing. Then I met these two dudes in Allston who, unfortuntely are moving to NYC. But they came and hung out with me and it was a good time..so happy I wasn't bitchy to guys approaching me at a bar/club..which is usually what I do..sorry.
I always say I don't know anybody anywhere but now I know 5 guys in NY and its cool.

Shit...I forgot to mention my two roommates! Kate's from Florida and she's awesome. I feel as though we're on the same page 100% of the time..the only difference between us is that she loves animals way more than me ha. And Joe is the biggest sweetheart ever. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he doesn't move to Allston when he comes back from tour because I really like being in his company.

I love and miss my friends from home dearly. But i'm really starting to appreciate meeting new people and talking and just enjoying more diverse company. It makes me feel good and no matter how troubled I feel i'm building a nice new support system of good people down here.